Many guys would say that confidence is a trait that they find very, if not, most attractive in a woman. I have always been jealous of girls who exude confidence because I have never been one of those people. My confidence definitely fell in high school and continued to dwindle throughout college with the depths of my spell under eda. As I have restored weight and regained my life back, my confidence, however, has not returned to me.
Last summer, I took a job in the town my family has a beach house as a hostess at a local restaurant. I had never been in the food service industry, but I thought “how hard could it be?” Well man I was wrong, it is not easy, especially during the summer months at one of the most popular restaurants in Pawleys Island, SC. I began and carried out my job last summer with the constant feeling that I was always doing something wrong, and I would never be a good hostess. The job actually takes a lot more skill than most people would think. Last summer, as I was training, I received a lot of constructive criticism, which I took pretty heavily. My perfectionism was ruined by the fact that I felt I would never be good at my job. Therefore, my confidence was extremely low every time I punched that clock in preparation for the day or night ahead of me.
I decided to give the job another shot this summer. I have only been there for a week so far, but my confidence in my abilities as a hostess is now so much better. Coming into this summer already knowing how things work, I jumped right into it. I immediately felt confident in what I was doing and how to handle the daunting list of reservations for a Saturday night in the summer at the beach. I realized this morning what confidence can do to you. I mean I am a totally different person behind that hostess stand now. It is my confidence that has helped me to be much more successful. I was completely capable of being just as successful last year, but starting off feeling like I was inadequate hindered me from being my best.
Confidence can completely change our abilities in almost anything. If I were to approach other tasks with more confidence, I could be so much more successful, and I think anyone could do the same. Even though eda took away a lot of it, I am learning the importance of confidence to be a better me.